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Darkness. Let me see a dream where I am close to touching you, Owl.
For now... 
7th-Aug-2010 07:52 pm
Ayabie is no more.... Yet my heart tells me they'll still be Ayabie... My mind instead answers back "No, it's not. It's not the same anymore."

For more than a year I followed, this breaks my heart more than all the animals and my grandmother who passed away.

Now, with four of them leaving the label and one stayed behind... No, it's no longer the same anymore.

For my fanfics, seeing this news, suddenly made me lose that touch to write on....

I feel at loss...

But my heart and mind have a same thing in common: They're both stubborn. Very, very stubborn.

Trained to accept both good and bad outcomes no matter what, they suddenly worked together and tell me not to break down, stand up, and write this out, explain yourself. I did.

So here is an announcement from me, as a good friend I try to be to all:

I'll still be around LJ, stalking you without notice or not. I'll still update my journal, but no longer in a usual time. I have exams, so I must be concentrating for that now.

But for my fanfics... They're my treasure, my relief medicine to ease out stress, my way to write and share my writings to all. Destroying the, is useless, so they will still be there. The stories will always be there for you to let you read...

For now, until I can find back that touch again, I'll put my writing activity in hiatus

Until around my time after the exams, I should use much of my time to properly recuperate myself... to be that 'me' that cares no obstacle that comes by... to be that 'me' that has endless fascinating things to tell you... to be that 'me' that will bring you out from sadness and despair...

For now, I too, am broken like some of you. Until then, until I can write stories again and be myself, I can no longer say "That's all" in each greeting to end this...

Let's all say "We'll meet again"...
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7th-Aug-2010 02:30 pm (UTC)
It's okay, I'm still trying to accept it as it has happened, I can't change for what has already happened ^^;

*grim smile* ...This pain, is nothing like seeing death coming for your loved ones. It's like looking at a loving realationship broke apart by mistakes, you feel like you carry the burden of your lost relationship.

And yes, their songs are still there, their songs that are like memories to them and I, and many more...

Well, do not blame your past, do not say you did not expect your present, and do not doubt your future. 2010 is certainly a time that has made us awaken from long sleep that has blinded and confused us ^^;

For now, I should rest and heal, until I know when I can wake up from the stupor of a long sleep.

Thank you, for now I want to go through a phase of change, to say goodbye to the past, and welcome the new present and future ^^
8th-Aug-2010 07:44 am (UTC)
just saw the news on your lj )':
i was a huge fan of them back in the day when ryohei were still in their lineup,
but it still hurts so much to know that they've decided to split up
and at such short notice too... ;-;

i can't imagine how you are feeling at this moment ): i'm so sorry...
for me, it kinda feels like all the love i've had for the band just
ripped apart and fell through somewhere...
i hope you'll be alright soon, but for now,
i givez you a virtual-hug (~;-;)~

for your upcoming exams and your writing hiatus,
be strong ♥ and dont get overworked ;~;
and lets not forget that though ayabie are gone,
all the members are still gonna be active in the music scene nonetheless :D
we should look forward to their new songs in the near future ♥
8th-Aug-2010 08:00 am (UTC)
Well, the outcome is already told, the warnings were their silent months, their feelings no longer as it used to be, So it's too late to change what has happened already ;^;

It feels a bit useless to cling hope they might come back six people who made Ayabie exist as long as we all met each other...
For now, I shall accept your hug too *bear hug*

For now, I know that I need to improve my writings and experiment on more bands, always staying and clinging on two bands won't help for now, so I'm widening the horizon to try more things soon... ^^
I hope they can make more music in the future soon, though the band is no longer together, but they are still there, and we will still follow them wherever they go ^^
8th-Aug-2010 11:18 am (UTC)
I'm with you there.
I know what it feels like to be broken by your very source of strength and inspiration.


*sigh* Let's hope for a brighter tomorrow, ne?
8th-Aug-2010 11:38 am (UTC)
Well, even the ones for my writing inspiration is currently shattered...
But what shattered pieced together with my bare hands piece by piece...
The pain has awaken me from a long sleep of stupor...
The lone glow of light lead me to an understanding, an enlightment...
My road ahead is now no longer narrow, it goes everywhere...
Everywhere, where my eyes now look everywhere...
I want to try anything new.... Or have thought about it...

*hugs back with comfort and love*

Yes, let's hope, as in MUCC's 暁闇 is it's last line of lyric:

I murmured to the rain
“Things will be better tomorrow”

8th-Aug-2010 11:41 am (UTC)
I know maybe you aren't into a jpop thing.
but I advise you listen to

Nantoka Narusa- NeWs

It'll cheer you up. I hope.:3
8th-Aug-2010 12:34 pm (UTC)
Maybe... maybe not, if I'm curious to listen a bit :3

I'll listen to it.... after a millenium :3
8th-Aug-2010 02:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry... :c *hugs forever*

When I feel down, I sometimes listen to Monthy Pyton's Always look at the Bright Side of Life, for some reason, it helps me cheer up. So maybe, it'll cheer you up a little? ^^

But never forget, that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.
8th-Aug-2010 04:19 pm (UTC)
It's okay, still getting used to the fact they're no longer as they used to be *hugs back forever*

I will, but... cheering me up is a bit harder, considering I always tried to be the one cheering you up, ne? ^^;

Yes, yes.... Tomorrow... and tomorrow, I'll always repeat the same sentence when I'm down... Murmuring "It'll be better tomorrow..."
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